Unplugged

A couple of weeks ago I decided to step away from social media. I still check it, I have a lot of clients that reach me through there, but it is no longer part of my social life. It took a while to get used to, but ultimately I am better off for it.

I continue to write, but now its like talking to myself. The only people to read my stuff followed the link I would post on Facebook. Before, maybe a 100 people would read this drivel, and now its less than half a dozen. I feel like I have done a service to my fellow man.

What is happening to me is net positive. I am becoming myself again. I am no longer a loud speaker for all the influential media machines that fought for space in my brain. I have some so called left wing views, and some right wing views. But they are not what Tucker Carlson or Cenk Uygur tell me to think. They are my own thoughts, and there is no need to broadcast them. If anyone would like to have a coffee and ask me what they are, I would share them. That being said, I have admiration for those that openly speak their conscience. I had just lost myself in it all, and needed to unplug.

In a way It has become more lonely. I do not have a house full of family. It is me, my dog and my cat half the time. The other half I am blessed to have the ever amazing Brooklyn. On facebook I had many people I could reach out to and chat with. I do miss that. But in another way it is far less lonely. I do not see someone else’s idea of a perfect life, and the things I do not have. I get to enjoy all the things God has given me. I am not told 20 hrs a day how evil the other half of society is. Now, if someone is different than me, I assume they haven’t experienced the things I have, or vice versa. Even if I think someones ideology is deeply dangerous, I no longer make the assumption that is their intent. If you turn off the slot machines that are Twitter, Facebook and Instagram, you will be amazed how your perspective might change.

I have recommitted myself to following God. It is not easy. But, it is rewarding. I drifted away this summer. I became judgemental even while I made very poor choices myself. I grew angry, frustrated, bitter and resentful to those I felt were actively engaged in destroying the way of life we all enjoyed. I forgot Jesus’s instruction to love everyone. I tell everyone I am a Christian yet I can’t remember the last time I truly was kind to someone I disagree with. I was self righteous, vain, vulgar, harsh, and argumentative.

How quickly I forgot where those choices led me in the past, and the peace God gave me when he saved me. As humans we give up on each other. When someones disappoints us a few times we are “done.” It is something we should all be ashamed of as we constantly betray our Creator meanwhile receiving divine forgiveness any time we ask. We simply do not get to judge others. We can judge behaviours, we can take moral stands, but we can never judge people comparative to yourself. No one is less than you. No one.

So did I unplug? Or did I plug in? I believe I retraced my steps, and went back to the rock that is my best Friend, all other ground was sinking sand.

If you read this far, Thank you.

Tris.